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at 7:25 AM

Woah its been a really long time since i last posted, and i suddenly wanted to post again. thanks to my very cute friend YVETTE TAY, i am getting better and better at talking to myself since she never ok fine seldom replies my whatsapp messages quickly and sometimes even never replies. so i guess my blog writing skills will be better since i will be better at entertaining myself. GOSH just realised how emo i was in 2010, and reading through my past posts, i can see how much i have matured. yeah yeah, sounds ego again, but really i seemed so childish back then, and unlikeable haha :D hopefully i am more likeable now take away the annoying side.

ANNOYING-NESS
idk why but i just find it fun to annoy people. its just kinda entertaining to watch people get annoyed with you and its funny when they try to like brush you off like a fly. ya know it kinda brings out ur child side which is what many of us, esp RGS girls, neglect or dont have these days. with all the PTs, pressure to keep GPA up etc. All my friends would know how ego I am, but i am really proud of my ego-ness, i think thats what makes me unique. I mean how boring would the world be without people like me:D haha:p

Looking back at all the blog posts in 2010, i am thankful that i have this blog, and that i remembered it when i was doing my eng PT blog post comment haha. how random and useful at the same time. This blog kinda acts as a time capsule, recording my growth as a person and in many other areas. I guess its really meaninful to look back on how you were in the past, and compare it to who you are today. Last time, i believed that blogs were just like a placeto display emo-ness, get rid of negative emotions, just really...RELEASE all the negative thoughts inside of you, and hoping...that someone will come along to read your blog and feel the same way as you do. Or perhaps through letting other people read your blog, make yourself feel better about yourself when you receive all those words of encouragement. In 2012, i learnt that recording your life shouldnt just be about all the bad things that happen to you. So what if they did happen. Who are you to blame but yourself? yes yes sometimes it may not be entirely our faults, but we have to take partial responsibility for everything that happens to us. Take my chem exam for example...

Growing as a CHRISTIAN(non-christians, i promise you wont find this part boring:D)
Not wanting to go to Church because i am too sian...or scared of awkwardness between me and church members had been a barrier for me to grow as a Christian for a long time. I am personally one who hates awkward situations, thats why i dont really like to go to new events to mix around with people i dont know. Call me anti-social and i dont deny it, which is something that i really wanted to change. last year, following the "guidelines" to be a good christian, i prayed to God for hardship to let me grow as a person. I didnt expect the hardships to really come but it did.

I can't say that it was an enjoyable period when all the hardships came at a go but i am thankful for them. Because it gave me a lot of first times:D the first time i failed an exam (chem:(), the first time i wanted to volunteer for something, the first time i became more responsible in conducting out what i proposed verbally and not just talk not do, the first time i actually wanted to go to church not to please my parents or for the fear of God, but because i myself wanted to. At a very difficult moment this year, I once questioned why was God doing this to me, why did all the hardships all have to come at one go? But as the period of hardships is kind of coming to an end, i realised that i have really grown a lot as a person. I am no longer the person i used to be. I dont attribute my academic success to my hardwork only but to the people around me who have supported me while i slog my head off studying before exams, and most importantly i attribute my success to God. As the Bible says, I am nothing without God.Whatever i have now, is God-given. My academic success is god-given and i should be grateful and not let pride overtake me.

Gosh what a long blog post, i think this is like the longest passage i have ever written in such a short period of about 24 mins hehe:D i guess i will stop here. a promise i want to make, the blog posts i post from now on will not just be about the bad things that happen to me, but the good things. What for dwell on the bad things that happen, embrace the good things and move forward.

Good night then<3