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at 7:25 AM

Woah its been a really long time since i last posted, and i suddenly wanted to post again. thanks to my very cute friend YVETTE TAY, i am getting better and better at talking to myself since she never ok fine seldom replies my whatsapp messages quickly and sometimes even never replies. so i guess my blog writing skills will be better since i will be better at entertaining myself. GOSH just realised how emo i was in 2010, and reading through my past posts, i can see how much i have matured. yeah yeah, sounds ego again, but really i seemed so childish back then, and unlikeable haha :D hopefully i am more likeable now take away the annoying side.

ANNOYING-NESS
idk why but i just find it fun to annoy people. its just kinda entertaining to watch people get annoyed with you and its funny when they try to like brush you off like a fly. ya know it kinda brings out ur child side which is what many of us, esp RGS girls, neglect or dont have these days. with all the PTs, pressure to keep GPA up etc. All my friends would know how ego I am, but i am really proud of my ego-ness, i think thats what makes me unique. I mean how boring would the world be without people like me:D haha:p

Looking back at all the blog posts in 2010, i am thankful that i have this blog, and that i remembered it when i was doing my eng PT blog post comment haha. how random and useful at the same time. This blog kinda acts as a time capsule, recording my growth as a person and in many other areas. I guess its really meaninful to look back on how you were in the past, and compare it to who you are today. Last time, i believed that blogs were just like a placeto display emo-ness, get rid of negative emotions, just really...RELEASE all the negative thoughts inside of you, and hoping...that someone will come along to read your blog and feel the same way as you do. Or perhaps through letting other people read your blog, make yourself feel better about yourself when you receive all those words of encouragement. In 2012, i learnt that recording your life shouldnt just be about all the bad things that happen to you. So what if they did happen. Who are you to blame but yourself? yes yes sometimes it may not be entirely our faults, but we have to take partial responsibility for everything that happens to us. Take my chem exam for example...

Growing as a CHRISTIAN(non-christians, i promise you wont find this part boring:D)
Not wanting to go to Church because i am too sian...or scared of awkwardness between me and church members had been a barrier for me to grow as a Christian for a long time. I am personally one who hates awkward situations, thats why i dont really like to go to new events to mix around with people i dont know. Call me anti-social and i dont deny it, which is something that i really wanted to change. last year, following the "guidelines" to be a good christian, i prayed to God for hardship to let me grow as a person. I didnt expect the hardships to really come but it did.

I can't say that it was an enjoyable period when all the hardships came at a go but i am thankful for them. Because it gave me a lot of first times:D the first time i failed an exam (chem:(), the first time i wanted to volunteer for something, the first time i became more responsible in conducting out what i proposed verbally and not just talk not do, the first time i actually wanted to go to church not to please my parents or for the fear of God, but because i myself wanted to. At a very difficult moment this year, I once questioned why was God doing this to me, why did all the hardships all have to come at one go? But as the period of hardships is kind of coming to an end, i realised that i have really grown a lot as a person. I am no longer the person i used to be. I dont attribute my academic success to my hardwork only but to the people around me who have supported me while i slog my head off studying before exams, and most importantly i attribute my success to God. As the Bible says, I am nothing without God.Whatever i have now, is God-given. My academic success is god-given and i should be grateful and not let pride overtake me.

Gosh what a long blog post, i think this is like the longest passage i have ever written in such a short period of about 24 mins hehe:D i guess i will stop here. a promise i want to make, the blog posts i post from now on will not just be about the bad things that happen to me, but the good things. What for dwell on the bad things that happen, embrace the good things and move forward.

Good night then<3



at 6:29 AM

I think i only write on my blog when i am stressed if not why am i here? lame, oh well, concert preps recently are like damn screwed lol, i mean our batch dance, honest opinion we got a lot to brush up on cos its like 1 in a million that we would cheng gong the whole tao, without discounting. Maybe i am exaggerating but still... and the seniors keep asking ask to learn the new dances. I'm not saying that i dont want to learn the new dances, but as an rgymmer i think that the dances are not gym at all, no offence to any seniors reading this. However, the battle and the contortionist are choreographed really very well incorporating sufficient rgym stuff and not by accident moving the limelight to dance. We might as well call ourselves Dance International 2. Sigh, but i honestly think that we shoud have just stuck to full rgym cos like only a few people maybe the cheerleaders can dance with... so much power, and some who look damn spas doing all the stuff like me, so yah, compared to battle which we have recently completed so much more natural and no need to feel self-conscious and all that. So screwed, 9 more days to concert and we havent learned alot of stuff and A gym is like so organized compared to us. We are like so dead seperated into batches while they are ...so united.??? :(

Also, got the notification which i had wanted to come later maybe NEVER!!! notification for nat team, have to go train i think with zhu on 1 nov. so paiseh lol, i think i am the most not flexible and apparatus the worse cos felicia learned optionals alr and janelle beat me to overall champ this year so screwed again. i think i died a lot of times alr recently. sian, and still got CCA awards day on 1 nov which would be very paiseh cos its like i am the only sec 1 . and only got wen jun with me and the rest of nat team. hmph

The GOOD thing is that my results for EYA were very satisfactory though i missed A LOT OF 4.0s by 1 mark or even half a mark. and i didnt fail anything !!YEAH, except for screwing bio, 2.4 :( so kinda pulled my marks down. but the rest i very happy. Geog- 3.6, Bio- 2.4, Math- 4.0, History- 3.6, English- 4.0, Lit- 3.6, Chinese- 3.6. so super happy despite the super close misses. but chloe even worse she missed 4.0 for some of her exams by 1 mark which is very chui xin gan. i officially HATE OCTOBER!!!!!


at 7:04 AM

i was sick, sick, sick the last three ddays. i am like soo lucky that i am well today. cos i totally freaked myself out when i went with my mum and my grandma to the clinic. they said that if you have any one of the following symptoms , cough, runny nose, fever and sore throat ,please wear a mask. then i suddenly thought of H1n1 COS I got three out of four of the symptoms. but lucky doctor just say got flu. praying that my cough will go away by monday. haven't been sleeping well the past few nights, cos my fever up and down. highest is 39.6 degrees. sigh...:(

anyways, my 1st training back at school ocked ttm!!!:0 missed them all so much!!! bt i still not sure whether i want to go back nat team training if i am selected. aiyah, shun qi zi ran ba. they say most likely in august then they inform. praying that they take as long as they can. then shen lao shi told me the other day that normal training , when the others doing their warm up , i must do the warm up that tan lao shi ask us to do at nat team there. a bit pauseh leh... and then noramlly after we hop one stretch we still have to wait for the others to finish , but i doing alone this time leh. How??? very tiring if i do continuously without stopping leh. but if i stop look like i slacking. anyways, i find that school training the physical training is more tiring than nat team training leh. but nat team ti tui at ba gan every single training, thats the dif lah.

oh, all followers of my blog, secret identity of "friend" is revealed. She is Lijia. @Lijia:Hope u don't mind me revealing ur identity:) i really don't mind hehe.


at 8:11 AM

hmm.. gym camp , well it kinda rocked but i think i missed all the fun and high parts.:( sad... well, sacrifice for training, so noble man. i am proud of myself:) just had a ce yan on friday, and i saw coach zhu laughing at me when i was doing left split kua tiao. i am not angry lah, cos i laughed at myself too. its such a joke that they ask me to do it when i obviously can't. now, i'm waiting for a letter of notification that i have been accepted to phase three, but i am not looking forward to it cos aiyah after today's training , i am not really sure abt staying in school training. well, it doesn't really bother me. anyways, i am so going to die for history and geog exams. cos i can't rmb a single thing about meanders whatsoever and history i dont know a single thing about gupta. haiz, sigh , so ging to die. can't be bothered anyways. :) going to enjoy the last few days of the hols:)


at 6:18 AM

oopy daisies. sorry 4 abandoning my blog(to whoever follows my blog). hmm,,, training has been ok so far lah. except from it being super tiring until cannot take it lol. :0. i think i 90% comfirm won't be staying at national team.

well, since my cousin came and left, i have realized that i am soo not cut out to do my owm business. i owed my cousin 155 million( monopoly dollars lah) when we played the latest monopoly. so paiseh. aiyoh, dont feel like writing liao. going to play y8:)...


at 2:36 AM

ok,just typing this cos i am feeling kinda bored:0. hmm, i am like soo not looking forward to tmrw's gym training lol. Like i am counting down, 6 more trainings to go( corrected by Tabitha FOo Yu Tian:)) . well, i do encourage myself at times saying that i have already completed 1/4 of hell:). i am currently sitting next to my mother and my cousin. my mum's is preaching chimology to my cousin(what poly courses, whether to go poly or jc etc) and i am trying to block out the unwanted noise, shant bother myself with these kinds of issue for the time being. i still want to enjoy my childhood man!!! anyways, i think those people at national team(rhythmic gymnastics) have no life man(shit , iam becoming like naj) , anyways, its true man. like yesterday, after training from 1-4 pm. they still had ballet from 4-6 pm. like what the shit lah, and this is holidays, imagine normal school days.OMG>> can't think...


at 5:22 AM

well, najla said that i was abandoning my blog so i decided to post something today. well, nothing really exciting today. just that today i had my second hell experience. i have decided to go for phase 2 national team selection trial. and it took me a super lot of courage lol, cos last time i quit national team before then now go back like damn paiseh. haiz, the nat team people that i was better than last time, are now much better than me. sigh, but anyways i think i will go back to school training after 2 weeks,end of phase 2 mah. cos my whole body aching like shit now lol...

anyways , missing all my gym friends and seniors so much lol, cant wait to go back. YAYZ, my cousin coming down from malaysia tmrw. and i got no gym!!!!!!!!!!!!! damn stressed out now lol. what kind of shit ya tui. and what the shit , 100 continuous double unders. and we are going to have to run 3 rounds around a super big track on friday. what kind of crazy training is this. those people totally have no life.