Thoughts...

2010-10-20T06:29:00.000-07:00

I think i only write on my blog when i am stressed if not why am i here? lame, oh well, concert preps recently are like damn screwed lol, i mean our batch dance, honest opinion we got a lot to brush up on cos its like 1 in a million that we would cheng gong the whole tao, without discounting. Maybe i am exaggerating but still... and the seniors keep asking ask to learn the new dances. I'm not saying that i dont want to learn the new dances, but as an rgymmer i think that the dances are not gym at all, no offence to any seniors reading this. However, the battle and the contortionist are choreographed really very well incorporating sufficient rgym stuff and not by accident moving the limelight to dance. We might as well call ourselves Dance International 2. Sigh, but i honestly think that we shoud have just stuck to full rgym cos like only a few people maybe the cheerleaders can dance with... so much power, and some who look damn spas doing all the stuff like me, so yah, compared to battle which we have recently completed so much more natural and no need to feel self-conscious and all that. So screwed, 9 more days to concert and we havent learned alot of stuff and A gym is like so organized compared to us. We are like so dead seperated into batches while they are ...so united.??? :(

Also, got the notification which i had wanted to come later maybe NEVER!!! notification for nat team, have to go train i think with zhu on 1 nov. so paiseh lol, i think i am the most not flexible and apparatus the worse cos felicia learned optionals alr and janelle beat me to overall champ this year so screwed again. i think i died a lot of times alr recently. sian, and still got CCA awards day on 1 nov which would be very paiseh cos its like i am the only sec 1 . and only got wen jun with me and the rest of nat team. hmph

The GOOD thing is that my results for EYA were very satisfactory though i missed A LOT OF 4.0s by 1 mark or even half a mark. and i didnt fail anything !!YEAH, except for screwing bio, 2.4 :( so kinda pulled my marks down. but the rest i very happy. Geog- 3.6, Bio- 2.4, Math- 4.0, History- 3.6, English- 4.0, Lit- 3.6, Chinese- 3.6. so super happy despite the super close misses. but chloe even worse she missed 4.0 for some of her exams by 1 mark which is very chui xin gan. i officially HATE OCTOBER!!!!!

2010-07-03T07:04:00.000-07:00

i was sick, sick, sick the last three ddays. i am like soo lucky that i am well today. cos i totally freaked myself out when i went with my mum and my grandma to the clinic. they said that if you have any one of the following symptoms , cough, runny nose, fever and sore throat ,please wear a mask. then i suddenly thought of H1n1 COS I got three out of four of the symptoms. but lucky doctor just say got flu. praying that my cough will go away by monday. haven't been sleeping well the past few nights, cos my fever up and down. highest is 39.6 degrees. sigh...:(

anyways, my 1st training back at school ocked ttm!!!:0 missed them all so much!!! bt i still not sure whether i want to go back nat team training if i am selected. aiyah, shun qi zi ran ba. they say most likely in august then they inform. praying that they take as long as they can. then shen lao shi told me the other day that normal training , when the others doing their warm up , i must do the warm up that tan lao shi ask us to do at nat team there. a bit pauseh leh... and then noramlly after we hop one stretch we still have to wait for the others to finish , but i doing alone this time leh. How??? very tiring if i do continuously without stopping leh. but if i stop look like i slacking. anyways, i find that school training the physical training is more tiring than nat team training leh. but nat team ti tui at ba gan every single training, thats the dif lah.

oh, all followers of my blog, secret identity of "friend" is revealed. She is Lijia. @Lijia:Hope u don't mind me revealing ur identity:) i really don't mind hehe.

2010-06-26T08:11:00.000-07:00

hmm.. gym camp , well it kinda rocked but i think i missed all the fun and high parts.:( sad... well, sacrifice for training, so noble man. i am proud of myself:) just had a ce yan on friday, and i saw coach zhu laughing at me when i was doing left split kua tiao. i am not angry lah, cos i laughed at myself too. its such a joke that they ask me to do it when i obviously can't. now, i'm waiting for a letter of notification that i have been accepted to phase three, but i am not looking forward to it cos aiyah after today's training , i am not really sure abt staying in school training. well, it doesn't really bother me. anyways, i am so going to die for history and geog exams. cos i can't rmb a single thing about meanders whatsoever and history i dont know a single thing about gupta. haiz, sigh , so ging to die. can't be bothered anyways. :) going to enjoy the last few days of the hols:)

2010-06-22T06:18:00.000-07:00

oopy daisies. sorry 4 abandoning my blog(to whoever follows my blog). hmm,,, training has been ok so far lah. except from it being super tiring until cannot take it lol. :0. i think i 90% comfirm won't be staying at national team.

well, since my cousin came and left, i have realized that i am soo not cut out to do my owm business. i owed my cousin 155 million( monopoly dollars lah) when we played the latest monopoly. so paiseh. aiyoh, dont feel like writing liao. going to play y8:)...

2010-06-16T02:36:00.000-07:00

ok,just typing this cos i am feeling kinda bored:0. hmm, i am like soo not looking forward to tmrw's gym training lol. Like i am counting down, 6 more trainings to go( corrected by Tabitha FOo Yu Tian:)) . well, i do encourage myself at times saying that i have already completed 1/4 of hell:). i am currently sitting next to my mother and my cousin. my mum's is preaching chimology to my cousin(what poly courses, whether to go poly or jc etc) and i am trying to block out the unwanted noise, shant bother myself with these kinds of issue for the time being. i still want to enjoy my childhood man!!! anyways, i think those people at national team(rhythmic gymnastics) have no life man(shit , iam becoming like naj) , anyways, its true man. like yesterday, after training from 1-4 pm. they still had ballet from 4-6 pm. like what the shit lah, and this is holidays, imagine normal school days.OMG>> can't think...

2010-06-15T05:22:00.000-07:00

well, najla said that i was abandoning my blog so i decided to post something today. well, nothing really exciting today. just that today i had my second hell experience. i have decided to go for phase 2 national team selection trial. and it took me a super lot of courage lol, cos last time i quit national team before then now go back like damn paiseh. haiz, the nat team people that i was better than last time, are now much better than me. sigh, but anyways i think i will go back to school training after 2 weeks,end of phase 2 mah. cos my whole body aching like shit now lol...

anyways , missing all my gym friends and seniors so much lol, cant wait to go back. YAYZ, my cousin coming down from malaysia tmrw. and i got no gym!!!!!!!!!!!!! damn stressed out now lol. what kind of shit ya tui. and what the shit , 100 continuous double unders. and we are going to have to run 3 rounds around a super big track on friday. what kind of crazy training is this. those people totally have no life.

2010-06-11T06:13:00.000-07:00

well, today was quite ok. but quite a disappointment. cos i was quite tired last nite, so i slept in until 1pm. then my maid woke me up, and said that we can make cakes today if i wke up then. wwas super excited then lol, then later she went out can came back and said that there was no more butter!! what the shit lol! i had to make it up cooking our dinner. but was quite fun anyways lah, made quail eggs with fried breadcrumbs as the outer layer. super nice. hmm,,, feeling super hungry now. i am always hungry at this time!;) going to find food now!! OHH, everybody, please pray 4 me that i will make the right decision by monday(whether to go national team a not, i need some comfort, how i wish i have best friends with me everyday, sleepover, then i will not feel so afraid, so scared)

2010-06-10T03:42:00.000-07:00

haiz, well super bad news. my mum says that her platelet count is low and therefore is considered to be "very sick" in her opinion, and so my cousin has been asked by her to come next week!!! OH MAN! life so sucks. anyways Nanny Mc Phee with A Big Bang is out , i want to watch!! Shrek for ever after too, that time lol, we wanted to watch then tab , clown and mazie watch liao. haiz, they super ma fan leh. but nvm:) anyways , my dad is bugging me for an answer on whether i have decided to go nat team a not. but , aiyah, i am trying super hard to distract myself. anyways, feeling a bit guilty now, having done any school related homework since the start of the week. hmm...maybe i asking my cousin out tmrw, then we can go watch movie.

hehez, concert prep well was better yesterday. tab and clown came up with tis super idea on using the same trick that tan lao shi taught them last time. we made sort of a star and denise stayed in the middle. hehe, finally a dance presentable, but i felt a bit paiseh cos we were using the can can song, not like zeng yu's dance lol, so sexy. but i find a bit unfair leh, no offence lah, but zeng yu's dance is pure dance leh. i dont see any relation to rhythmic gymnastics, they might as well call it a dance concert lol. haiz, but lucky our sec 1 batch dance is pure rhythmic gymnatics, so can make up for it. super nice lol, all the 7 ribbons the colour combination. they are 2 baby pink, 1 purple, 1 black, 1 baby blue, 1 hot pink, and one orange. nice rite?hehe . well thats abt it 4 today.

2010-06-09T07:24:00.000-07:00

haiz... the email came from singapore gym. dont know whther i should go leh, but i have decided that i am not going to think about it until sunday, the day b4 training over there actually starts. hehe, i know i have been abandoning this blog for a few days liao . ai yah , not my fault, sian to typewww.blogger.com and then somemore my password quite long, my fingers tired lah. :) anyways, the sleepover rocked ttm man!!! wished that time passed slower:) we went ice-skating and me and clown at first didnt dare to skate cos we wanted the metal bars to lean on. hehe, we so old liao, still so 怕死. then i tried skating around and i looked like some kind of idiot clutching the sides of the rink so tightly, i bet i screamed about 15 times when tab/naj/mazie brought me around to skate. i will be like" dont go so fast!!!AAARGHHH!!!OMG! i wanna go to the side!" heh, so paiseh, lucky it was quite noisy there, and there was music if not so embarassing. i am so happy, my braces are ok now, last time only can eat porridge , cheese also cannot bite into. :)

well , its such a pity that naj couldnt stay over if not it would be sooo fun. and the next sleepover at naj's house is cancelled. sooo sad. i wanna sleepover again. but, aiyah, can't blame her lah...also not her fault that something family problem cropped up(won't be revealed to respect naj's privacy, see naj, i so nice rite?? hehe, joking lah!) anyways, my cousin coming down from malaysia this sat, so excited but sadly he wont get to stay in my house cos my mum is seriously ill. sighs, hope she gets well soon.

hmph, last time during the hols in primary school i will be like, huh, can skip gym today anot, dont feel like going leh. now leh, i rather go for training so i wont think about that issue. i know its a bit crazy, but i wish that there is school, business would distract me from all the pain. seriously, i think i might have to see a psychiatrist.(not sure whther its spelt correctly) anyways,i am thinking now a days that daiyangtian is quite hot!hehe:)

anyways, to all or any followers of my blog , the side edits like"the queen" etc, i fake as it is done by najla. i did not kill baron chen , my wish is not to give naj a million dollars and i do not like ethan ruan.

2010-06-02T20:02:00.000-07:00

Ouch man, just put my bottom part of braces.Feels super uncomfortable now lol. i think the only thing i can eat now is porridge. SIghs, hope that it willl be better b4 sleepover. Was telling Tab they all on wed during concert prep that we could do 三菜一汤, hehe, but we have to decide what food to cook. can't wait to mess up the kitchen, wreak havoc:) Haiz, the sleepover date has been changed to thurs-fri. i dont want. still must wait so long! i 等不及 liao. hope that time will fly faster":)@@@@@@@still dont feel like doing school hols hmwk, but must do, i so need to learn from clown and tab, the muggers.hehe. yesterday's 10.00 pm show was super nice lol,but i still feel sad for Leslie Sung, so shuai>... well, at least ethan ruan looked not bad in western suit at the end of the show when he becomes sort of a doctor. happy alr bah,najla:) heh, can't wait for today 10pm show on channel u, its some show on dancing , looks appealing to me;)

2010-06-01T21:01:00.000-07:00

yayz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no need to think liao. my dad just say wait for th letter from the rgym committee. but if i go , i will miss al my friends and seniors. awww....hehe!can'twait 4 gym later, evn though we are going to embarass ourself. hee:) cos we so naughty, never go 4 concert prep yesterday!

anywayz , i can't wait 4 sleepover on monday!!!!WWOOHHOOOO!!!;) going to be do much fun, staying up superlate. just that clown say she wont be able to stay awake. hehe, she soo cute!!!!:) movie marathon!! rmb everytime we say so when ah , the sleepover, then we will talk until a whole new topic. after 5 min, someone will be like, so how ah? super funny one de lol. loving today!!!

2010-05-31T21:29:00.000-07:00

First blogposts are supposed to be happy. Well i suppose it is different for me. ...Deciding whether i shld go for national team. Coach zhu called on saturday night called last night, talked to my parents and she said that i have to reconsider carefully as i quit b4." is this really wht i want" were my 1st thoughts. She said i had to give her an answer by yesterday, 8pm. ...i still haven't given her an answer yet. i told my parents last nite i have decided not to go. And they gave me this whole load of crap. At first , they said that they encourage me to go, then my dad say what i am being selfish, not considering their feelings. Saying what, they try so hard and i dont even want to give myself a chance. What 4 asking my opinion when the only answer they want is yes. Shoot, this world sucks... regret goin for trials, i have been thinkng since sat, if i go 4 nat team, i wont be able to train with my best friends, i would drift away from them. my seniors too.no more playin com time and tv time. how abt homework. i rmb the bad memories, i used to cry every night, have stomah ache every training. go to the toilet and stay there for min 10 min, wishing that my mum was there to bring me home. What should i do???

4 those that are reading this , sorry for being so emo, bt i am really confused...